I'm No Leader

Hey there, World!

Last semestre, we had this subject course named Feasibility Studies. It's a study that lets you think of a service or product, do some research and interviewing, then find out if your product will be a hit to the public. We were assigned to think of at least three ideas for the FS. I thought of a strap that attaches to your phone so that you won't drop or get it snatched away by some riding in tandem. The second was a high school that teaches english proficiency. I couldn't think of a third one but my friend suggested that I put in a mobile pet groomers. Well I went with it so I wrote it down because I need a third idea and our class was going to start.

Our professor looked at all of our ideas... she chose five ideas and one of them is the mobile pet groomers (because she freakin' likes dogs). And she also assigned who will be the the leaders of each idea... which is the person who thought of the idea (crap).

At first we went with the pet groomers and for some reason our prof let somebody change their idea. One of my group members was like, "Hey, we should change our topic too, because one of my friends did an FS too and their finished with it. Lets use it!" At first I want to reject her thought because I wanted to do this from start to finish, but I never said a word. Some of my groupmates didn't want to change too but they couldn't say anything either. So in the end we asked our prof to change it and we went with coffee spa. I know you're thinking, "But you're the leader! You should've said something." Well yeah, I SHOULD'VE said something, but that person has a strong aura to her that can't be reckoned with.

After that we did survey and tallied the answers of the survey... thats when productivity went stagnant. After consulting multiple times only one of us was working. This girl was taking all of the work and wouldn't give some to us so that work can be finished fast. And even if she did some of us are too busy with part-time jobs. You're probably thinking, "You're the leader, you should've divided the work." Yes, I should've done that, but it's like a cat got my tongue, and somebody already did that.

I felt so ashamed... I wasn't able to lead my groupmates in what they should do. They weren't doing anything because they were waiting for my orders. I tried motivating them by saying that we will graduate if we finish it, but it seems that they weren't fazed by it. I apologized to them through our group message. I told them that I would try to be a better leader, but until now I feel like I'm not even trying.

I guess I am not an effective leader. I guess I am kind of a laissez-faire style leader, according to our lesson in "Supervisory Management." I let people do what they want.
Right now, we are cramming to complete our Feasibility with the thought of a small chance of graduation and time running out.

I'm sorry if this is quite a negative post but like I said, I'm using this as a form of expression.

I hope you at least enjoyed reading, and I'll write again soon.