I Am an Adult but...

Hey there, World!

It has been one week since my graduation, and guess what? I am an adult but I am still unemployed. Well, one reason is that I haven't busting my butt and find a job. Another reason is that I don't feel like finding a job yet. Earning money must feel great, but I don't have a drive to get the job I need to make a living. It is a good thing my parents aren't pressuring me much to find a job right away, even though back then my mother keeps telling me to help her with buying her medicine.

I am an adult but I still need my parent's permission to go somewhere. The other day my college classmate had a birthday, and I was invited. I told my mother about it and when I told her that I will go at 4:00 PM, she told me, "Huwag kang magpapagabi ha?" Meaning I shouldn't stay out late. Well, it is quite understandable because I am the youngest in the family plus the only daughter. And I do understand that there are bad people out there with bad intentions, but I have friends with me. I wouldn't go if I go there alone. I still feel like a teenager when she told me to get home early but that's what mothers are. Well in the end, I got home around 9:00 PM.

I am an adult but going out with my boyfriend seems a bit more complicated these days than while I was still studying. My parents wouldn't want me to go out with him unless they approve it. Back then, I would use school as an excuse to be with him, but now I don't have school as an alibi anymore. I remember a while back, my father told me, "Kapag nakagraduate ka na, hahayain kitang gawin ang gusto mo." Well, here I am, a fresh graduate and I suppose I am free right? I'm not so sure about that. I have this unsettling feeling that I need to get a job first before I do anything that I want. But again, I don't feel like it, so it is quite difficult for me.

I am an adult but I still get money from my parents. I still have a bit of money but it is not much and I can't ask for more from my parents because hey, I should get a job to get my own money. I try to keep myself useful and do house chores so that they won't scold me for being lazy. I just don't want to disappoint them from my lack of initiative to get a job.

Being a fresh graduate and an adult is difficult, but I am still young and I don't have to rush in to things like getting a job or moving to your own house. I am still 20 years old and if time doesn't move fast forward, I still have time to figure out what I want.

I hope you enjoyed reading, and I'll write again soon. :)