Hey there, World!
It has been one week since my graduation, and guess what? I am an adult but I am still unemployed. Well, one reason is that I haven't busting my butt and find a job. Another reason is that I don't feel like finding a job yet. Earning money must feel great, but I don't have a drive to get the job I need to make a living. It is a good thing my parents aren't pressuring me much to find a job right away, even though back then my mother keeps telling me to help her with buying her medicine.
I am an adult but I still need my parent's permission to go somewhere. The other day my college classmate had a birthday, and I was invited. I told my mother about it and when I told her that I will go at 4:00 PM, she told me, "Huwag kang magpapagabi ha?" Meaning I shouldn't stay out late. Well, it is quite understandable because I am the youngest in the family plus the only daughter. And I do understand that there are bad people out there with bad intentions, but I have friends with me. I wouldn't go if I go there alone. I still feel like a teenager when she told me to get home early but that's what mothers are. Well in the end, I got home around 9:00 PM.
I am an adult but going out with my boyfriend seems a bit more complicated these days than while I was still studying. My parents wouldn't want me to go out with him unless they approve it. Back then, I would use school as an excuse to be with him, but now I don't have school as an alibi anymore. I remember a while back, my father told me, "Kapag nakagraduate ka na, hahayain kitang gawin ang gusto mo." Well, here I am, a fresh graduate and I suppose I am free right? I'm not so sure about that. I have this unsettling feeling that I need to get a job first before I do anything that I want. But again, I don't feel like it, so it is quite difficult for me.
I am an adult but I still get money from my parents. I still have a bit of money but it is not much and I can't ask for more from my parents because hey, I should get a job to get my own money. I try to keep myself useful and do house chores so that they won't scold me for being lazy. I just don't want to disappoint them from my lack of initiative to get a job.
Being a fresh graduate and an adult is difficult, but I am still young and I don't have to rush in to things like getting a job or moving to your own house. I am still 20 years old and if time doesn't move fast forward, I still have time to figure out what I want.
I hope you enjoyed reading, and I'll write again soon. :)
Tuesday, May 10, 2016
Wednesday, May 4, 2016
A Bittersweet End and a Difficult Beginning
Hey there, World!
Oh. My. Goodness.
I haven't wrote in a month! (So much for writing again soon.) Well then... I dunno where to start. Let's catch up, shall we?
During early April it was probably the start of our "vacation" (put quotation marks because some of us are already working.) I just lazed around for the first half of April. I know I had time to write but I can't write as much as I can without a PC, decent internet, and the most difficult to attain: inspiration. Oh and another difficult to attain which is motivation.
I know I sound like I am a bad blogger, but it can't be helped that I don't update regularly. I am trying to change my attitude towards stuff that I can not finish. It is quite saddening but I will not stop writing in my blog until I get old and can't keep up with the new tech.
Second half of April we had some activities that involved us as graduating students. We first attended a personality development seminar which was organized by our organization. It's a good thing they conducted such a seminar because it turns out it is required for us to attend one.
We then held a meeting about graduation and the fees involving it. After that meeting, me and my mother went to my cousin's house to have my aunt's 40 days. I spent almost a week there. I didn't enjoy it much because my cousin niece is in to League of Legends and well I am not much of a MOBA gamer. We always end up doing AI games in League... and to make it worse she has to adjust to me not wanting to play LOL and play something else. I very well noticed it when we played a Steam game named "Unturned." We used to have fun playing that game but it seems she didn't feel like playing it at that time.
When we came back it was already busy because we did another seminar which is the career seminar. It's for us graduating students to be prepared and expect what's to come once we step out from the doors of our Sintang Paaralan.
Next was the Job Fair. Honestly, it was a bit of a drag for me to go. But it's needed for the clearance so I went anyway. I might find a job there.
We were required to pass our resumés to five companies. One company I submitted to was from Alabang. Another from Sta. Rosa. The farthest that I applied was from Makati. I applied one company that's interesting. The company was Vans. Since Vans is known for their shoes, there were more applicants lining up there, especially the young ones. When it was my turn to get the interview, I was a bit surprised that the recruitment staff actually gave me a decent interview, with "What do you see yourself on five years?" and stuff like that. I thought it'll be that they will ask questions from my resumé but no it wasn't. Though I might not make it through there because I stuttered even though I received a text saying I am in the hiring pools of Vans.
Next we did graduation practice for three days. Our admin staff told us that we have to make it decent, if not perfect, so that we won't be ranked low among other campuses and branches of PUP. On the second day of practice we were required to sing the PUP Hymn one by one. Well I know the lyrics but I get confused from the lyrics like mixing them up. I made it through anyway.
Before we practiced on the last day, we did the Baccalaureate Mass as thanks to God for helping us graduate. Then on practice I brought the shoes that I was going to wear for graduation. My feet hurt as hell after wearing those two inch heels and I had to wear them again for the big day.
Came the day of our graduation. We were all dolled up with the pretty dresses and make up. The guys looked dashing in their long sleeve polo shirts and neckties. The dresses ranged from the simplest to the most posh looking dress. I wore a simple blue dress and an accent white belt. Unfortunately, somebody wore a dress that's almost similar. It was embarrassing, yes, but I try not to get close to her so that we both won't get compared.
The ceremony went well actually. But I had to remove my glasses so that my make up will be fully exposed. It was a very blurry sight for me but it's fine. I have been doing that for special events anyway. Made me wonder if I should wear contacts when I get married...
Anyway... after the ceremony my mother went teary eyed and she said she was proud of me. It got me teary eyed too but I managed to control it. Speaking of teary eyed... I thought our Cum Laude will cry during her speech but she didn't. I guess it's probably rehearsed so the feeling isn't that deep anymore.
This day, our graduation day, I felt a bittersweetness toward this event. I am happy of course but not that much. I guess it's because that knowing you don't have mean teachers and professors to pressure you all the time. You don't have homework due tomorrow. You don't have school projects to frantically finish. You don't have to see your schoolmates and classmates. All of that you won't be doing anymore, and that's a bit sad for me. It's a bittersweet feeling. (Unless I do Masteral Degree but I don't plan to.)
And now that chapter has come to an end and on to the next one. It'll be a difficult start for me since I don't know what to do at this point. Sure I'll work but then what? I guess I'll have to see what happens next as I move forward with life
I hope you enjoyed reading, and I'll write again soon. :)
Oh. My. Goodness.
I haven't wrote in a month! (So much for writing again soon.) Well then... I dunno where to start. Let's catch up, shall we?
During early April it was probably the start of our "vacation" (put quotation marks because some of us are already working.) I just lazed around for the first half of April. I know I had time to write but I can't write as much as I can without a PC, decent internet, and the most difficult to attain: inspiration. Oh and another difficult to attain which is motivation.
I know I sound like I am a bad blogger, but it can't be helped that I don't update regularly. I am trying to change my attitude towards stuff that I can not finish. It is quite saddening but I will not stop writing in my blog until I get old and can't keep up with the new tech.
Second half of April we had some activities that involved us as graduating students. We first attended a personality development seminar which was organized by our organization. It's a good thing they conducted such a seminar because it turns out it is required for us to attend one.
We then held a meeting about graduation and the fees involving it. After that meeting, me and my mother went to my cousin's house to have my aunt's 40 days. I spent almost a week there. I didn't enjoy it much because my cousin niece is in to League of Legends and well I am not much of a MOBA gamer. We always end up doing AI games in League... and to make it worse she has to adjust to me not wanting to play LOL and play something else. I very well noticed it when we played a Steam game named "Unturned." We used to have fun playing that game but it seems she didn't feel like playing it at that time.
When we came back it was already busy because we did another seminar which is the career seminar. It's for us graduating students to be prepared and expect what's to come once we step out from the doors of our Sintang Paaralan.
Next was the Job Fair. Honestly, it was a bit of a drag for me to go. But it's needed for the clearance so I went anyway. I might find a job there.
We were required to pass our resumés to five companies. One company I submitted to was from Alabang. Another from Sta. Rosa. The farthest that I applied was from Makati. I applied one company that's interesting. The company was Vans. Since Vans is known for their shoes, there were more applicants lining up there, especially the young ones. When it was my turn to get the interview, I was a bit surprised that the recruitment staff actually gave me a decent interview, with "What do you see yourself on five years?" and stuff like that. I thought it'll be that they will ask questions from my resumé but no it wasn't. Though I might not make it through there because I stuttered even though I received a text saying I am in the hiring pools of Vans.
Next we did graduation practice for three days. Our admin staff told us that we have to make it decent, if not perfect, so that we won't be ranked low among other campuses and branches of PUP. On the second day of practice we were required to sing the PUP Hymn one by one. Well I know the lyrics but I get confused from the lyrics like mixing them up. I made it through anyway.
Before we practiced on the last day, we did the Baccalaureate Mass as thanks to God for helping us graduate. Then on practice I brought the shoes that I was going to wear for graduation. My feet hurt as hell after wearing those two inch heels and I had to wear them again for the big day.
Came the day of our graduation. We were all dolled up with the pretty dresses and make up. The guys looked dashing in their long sleeve polo shirts and neckties. The dresses ranged from the simplest to the most posh looking dress. I wore a simple blue dress and an accent white belt. Unfortunately, somebody wore a dress that's almost similar. It was embarrassing, yes, but I try not to get close to her so that we both won't get compared.
The ceremony went well actually. But I had to remove my glasses so that my make up will be fully exposed. It was a very blurry sight for me but it's fine. I have been doing that for special events anyway. Made me wonder if I should wear contacts when I get married...
Anyway... after the ceremony my mother went teary eyed and she said she was proud of me. It got me teary eyed too but I managed to control it. Speaking of teary eyed... I thought our Cum Laude will cry during her speech but she didn't. I guess it's probably rehearsed so the feeling isn't that deep anymore.
This day, our graduation day, I felt a bittersweetness toward this event. I am happy of course but not that much. I guess it's because that knowing you don't have mean teachers and professors to pressure you all the time. You don't have homework due tomorrow. You don't have school projects to frantically finish. You don't have to see your schoolmates and classmates. All of that you won't be doing anymore, and that's a bit sad for me. It's a bittersweet feeling. (Unless I do Masteral Degree but I don't plan to.)
And now that chapter has come to an end and on to the next one. It'll be a difficult start for me since I don't know what to do at this point. Sure I'll work but then what? I guess I'll have to see what happens next as I move forward with life
I hope you enjoyed reading, and I'll write again soon. :)
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