Hey there, World!
Well, I would like to take out some emotions for today... if you guys don't mind.
My mother has been feeling unwell lately. She has been feeling weak for a while now and because of that I got a little worried. I told my cousin-niece that we can't visit her during Holy Week. It seemed that it disappointed her and I felt really bad. After a few days I aided my mother in anything that she needs me to do. Though sometimes her orders pile up and she won't wait me to finish my first task before giving me another order. But I endured it because she is mother.
My "time of the month" is near and I have been quite irritable. Which makes enduring my mother's piling up orders a bit hard. When I get irritated a feel something squiggle around on my temple... maybe its a nerve that's gonna pop through my skin. I just kept quiet and calmed myself with some games.
Today I just let out a bit of frustration. I was cooking fish while I was doing something else. I forgot about the fish and one side of it got burnt. To think that it's my mother's dinner. I knew that it made her mood go down so I felt a bit frustrated. Next, my father was doing laundry. It's night so he would need the light... but I accidentally turned it off and he got a little annoyed which made me more frustrated. And lastly, I was helping my mother to read her medicine and to see if her meds are for morning, afternoon, or night. She told me to read only the front page of her prescription. She said that for like a couple of times. I took out one med that's for night out from its packaging foil... almost took out one that's for afternoon... though I said that the afternoon is "hapon" but she argued that it's "tanghali." I gotten used to saying "hapon" as afternoon... so my frustration added.
Then she asked me for one more med to read. I accidentally looked at the back for a second and she suddenly raised her voice saying, "Hindi, ang sabi ko sa harap mo lang babasahin kasi na andyan yung nabili ko." Meaning, she told me to read only the front because she bought those meds at the front. I interrupted her to say that the last med is for morning because I was at my limit. I went to the bathroom to let my tears flow. I didn't came back for a while until I calmed down and ate dinner then washed up.
I was probably building up the bad feelings that I felt before without realizing it. Being a quiet person can be quite dangerous because if you keep things to yourself, you might just self-destruct. I try to voice out to anybody what I feel. To a friend, brother, sister, significant other, anybody who is close to you. Anybody who understands you. After talking to them you'll feel better. Expressing yourself through your hobbies or passions helps too, like what I am doing right now.
I hope you enjoyed reading, and I'll write again soon. :)
Monday, March 28, 2016
Sunday, March 27, 2016
Five Ways To Sleep Early
Hey there, World!
As a (soon to be former) college student, phone owner, internet lover, and game lover, I do not sleep early at all unless needed. I sleep at around 2:30 or 3:00 AM, and wake up at noon. My mother always tell me to sleep more early especially if she sees me having colds. She would go, "Wag ka nang magpuyat, sinisipon ka na oh!" Meaning, don't sleep late cause you're having colds... I always end up sleeping late anyway.
So I sleep late all the time because I have my phone, games, and mobile data. But how about I have somewhere to go tomorrow morning? How will I be able to sleep early? Especially now, that it's summer vacation I sleep even more late. Well, I'll share a couple of things that I do to sleep early and a few more that searched in the net.
1. Drink warm milk. This is quite effective for me since I love drinking milk. Some people say it doesn't work for them but it does to me. I feel sleepy after drinking a cup of warm milk then I dose off. I guess warm milk gives me that cozy feeling especially during cold nights.
2. Making up stories in my mind. This is kinda like my bedtime story since I like making stories. I know what you're thinking, "But having something in your mind will keep you awake!" Yes that's true, but thats only if you have a problem in your mind or something is bugging you. I just close my eyes and start making a story after a few hours I didn't realize that I was asleep until I woke up. Sometimes this method gives me ideas for stories since the brain is more active at night.
3. Prevent any light from coming in your room. According to lifehack.org, light interferes sleep hormones and stimulates the brain. So it is a good idea to close all of your lights and you won't have a hard time sleeping.
4. Sleep in a cool room. Health.com says that people fall sleep easier and sleep better when their rooms are comfortably cool. But that doesn't mean you need an air conditioner. An electric fan (that's set to high) can provide that cool feeling even in summer nights.
5. Take a warm bath. Huffpost.com suggest that taking a hot bath an hour before your bedtime relaxes your body and lets your body prepare to sleep. Also, don't you just love the feeling of being fresh out of the bath and then jumping in to bed feeling all cozy? Make sure you dry your hair though.
Well that's it for this post now. It has been another week since my last post. I have been quite busy taking care of my mother because she weakened from being too stressed out. I hope she gets better soon.
I hope you enjoyed reading, and I'll write again soon. :)
As a (soon to be former) college student, phone owner, internet lover, and game lover, I do not sleep early at all unless needed. I sleep at around 2:30 or 3:00 AM, and wake up at noon. My mother always tell me to sleep more early especially if she sees me having colds. She would go, "Wag ka nang magpuyat, sinisipon ka na oh!" Meaning, don't sleep late cause you're having colds... I always end up sleeping late anyway.
So I sleep late all the time because I have my phone, games, and mobile data. But how about I have somewhere to go tomorrow morning? How will I be able to sleep early? Especially now, that it's summer vacation I sleep even more late. Well, I'll share a couple of things that I do to sleep early and a few more that searched in the net.
1. Drink warm milk. This is quite effective for me since I love drinking milk. Some people say it doesn't work for them but it does to me. I feel sleepy after drinking a cup of warm milk then I dose off. I guess warm milk gives me that cozy feeling especially during cold nights.
2. Making up stories in my mind. This is kinda like my bedtime story since I like making stories. I know what you're thinking, "But having something in your mind will keep you awake!" Yes that's true, but thats only if you have a problem in your mind or something is bugging you. I just close my eyes and start making a story after a few hours I didn't realize that I was asleep until I woke up. Sometimes this method gives me ideas for stories since the brain is more active at night.
3. Prevent any light from coming in your room. According to lifehack.org, light interferes sleep hormones and stimulates the brain. So it is a good idea to close all of your lights and you won't have a hard time sleeping.
4. Sleep in a cool room. Health.com says that people fall sleep easier and sleep better when their rooms are comfortably cool. But that doesn't mean you need an air conditioner. An electric fan (that's set to high) can provide that cool feeling even in summer nights.
5. Take a warm bath. Huffpost.com suggest that taking a hot bath an hour before your bedtime relaxes your body and lets your body prepare to sleep. Also, don't you just love the feeling of being fresh out of the bath and then jumping in to bed feeling all cozy? Make sure you dry your hair though.
Well that's it for this post now. It has been another week since my last post. I have been quite busy taking care of my mother because she weakened from being too stressed out. I hope she gets better soon.
I hope you enjoyed reading, and I'll write again soon. :)
Tuesday, March 15, 2016
Loss of a Relative
Hey there, World!
Yet again, I have been MIA in my blog. Things been quite busy, especially that lately my aunt that I have known for as long that I could remember passed away. Though we weren't that close, but even so, she is still my aunt. It was my first time in my life that I experience going through the whole process of taking care of a funeral.
A couple of weeks ago, my aunt, Cora Agustin, got hospitalized. I didn't know much the details, but after a few days, she was fine and got discharged. The following week, she got hospitalized again, and this time, her condition was critical and she was placed in the ICU. It started with her hypoglycemia, and then other complications started to surface. My mother went to the hospital to visit and the next day, she came with me. I saw her limp condition, with tubes connected to her. I watched her carefully as I noticed that her chest was going up and down from the oxygen. My cousin said that she had little chance of survival. She also said that we were given a choice, whether we end her life or let my aunt decide. My cousin chose to let her mother decide whether if she wants to live on or not. During our stay at hospital, we my mother and my cousin talked about what happened before she got hospitalized. I heard that she was craving food that she wasn't allowed to eat. I also heard that she put on some make up, which was unusual because she did it in the middle of the night. It seemed like she was getting ready for something... like getting ready to meet her late husband. My cousin cried as she was explaining to us what was her condition, and it is rare for her to cry. We went home and rested. The next day, March 11, she passed away around 3:00 AM. She died from heart attack.
Every thing happened too fast. I woke up on the same day that my aunt died, and found my mother packing our things. She told me, "Wala na si Tita Cora. Umayos ka na at pupunta tayong Batangas." I was in shock in hearing the news. Though for some reason, I halfly expected that she won't make it. But still I prayed that she would make it before that happened. We traveled to Batangas, and reached to the funeral services place. For some reason, the commute took forever and I dunno if it is because the feeling of knowing that somebody close to you passed away. I saw my cousin and it seemed she was fine, or she was trying to be strong. We stayed in the funeral services place because that is where the funeral was held. I had exams the next day so I told my mother about it. She told me that my father will pick me up to take me back to Binan. I slept and the next morning I went back home and took my exams and took my lessons and went back to Batangas. Friends and family came to mourn for her. My aunt's boyfriend was with us for the whole time.
The burial was on March 13, we started the procession at 1:30 PM. The music was making everybody cry, including myself. We all went to the church where the mass was taken place. During the mass, my cousin felt uneasy. She said that her heart was palpitating. At the end of the mass, everybody gathered around her to see if she was okay. Another cousin of mine aided her since she is a doctor, while another relative of mine held her hand said some prayers (because she is a nun.) In the end, she cried her heart out. She may have hid all of her sadness because she needs to be strong, but in the end she just let it all out. She refused to go to the cemetery until her mother's coffin was inside the grave. After a while, she came and prayed for her mother.
Now my mother is the only one left that is from her family. It is quite sad when you think about it and I don't like the idea of losing her also shortly after. I would be devastated if she were to be gone and not able to live longer than she should be. I just hope that she will live long enough to at least see grandchildren.
I hope you enjoyed reading, and I'll write again soon.
Yet again, I have been MIA in my blog. Things been quite busy, especially that lately my aunt that I have known for as long that I could remember passed away. Though we weren't that close, but even so, she is still my aunt. It was my first time in my life that I experience going through the whole process of taking care of a funeral.
A couple of weeks ago, my aunt, Cora Agustin, got hospitalized. I didn't know much the details, but after a few days, she was fine and got discharged. The following week, she got hospitalized again, and this time, her condition was critical and she was placed in the ICU. It started with her hypoglycemia, and then other complications started to surface. My mother went to the hospital to visit and the next day, she came with me. I saw her limp condition, with tubes connected to her. I watched her carefully as I noticed that her chest was going up and down from the oxygen. My cousin said that she had little chance of survival. She also said that we were given a choice, whether we end her life or let my aunt decide. My cousin chose to let her mother decide whether if she wants to live on or not. During our stay at hospital, we my mother and my cousin talked about what happened before she got hospitalized. I heard that she was craving food that she wasn't allowed to eat. I also heard that she put on some make up, which was unusual because she did it in the middle of the night. It seemed like she was getting ready for something... like getting ready to meet her late husband. My cousin cried as she was explaining to us what was her condition, and it is rare for her to cry. We went home and rested. The next day, March 11, she passed away around 3:00 AM. She died from heart attack.
Every thing happened too fast. I woke up on the same day that my aunt died, and found my mother packing our things. She told me, "Wala na si Tita Cora. Umayos ka na at pupunta tayong Batangas." I was in shock in hearing the news. Though for some reason, I halfly expected that she won't make it. But still I prayed that she would make it before that happened. We traveled to Batangas, and reached to the funeral services place. For some reason, the commute took forever and I dunno if it is because the feeling of knowing that somebody close to you passed away. I saw my cousin and it seemed she was fine, or she was trying to be strong. We stayed in the funeral services place because that is where the funeral was held. I had exams the next day so I told my mother about it. She told me that my father will pick me up to take me back to Binan. I slept and the next morning I went back home and took my exams and took my lessons and went back to Batangas. Friends and family came to mourn for her. My aunt's boyfriend was with us for the whole time.
The burial was on March 13, we started the procession at 1:30 PM. The music was making everybody cry, including myself. We all went to the church where the mass was taken place. During the mass, my cousin felt uneasy. She said that her heart was palpitating. At the end of the mass, everybody gathered around her to see if she was okay. Another cousin of mine aided her since she is a doctor, while another relative of mine held her hand said some prayers (because she is a nun.) In the end, she cried her heart out. She may have hid all of her sadness because she needs to be strong, but in the end she just let it all out. She refused to go to the cemetery until her mother's coffin was inside the grave. After a while, she came and prayed for her mother.
Now my mother is the only one left that is from her family. It is quite sad when you think about it and I don't like the idea of losing her also shortly after. I would be devastated if she were to be gone and not able to live longer than she should be. I just hope that she will live long enough to at least see grandchildren.
I hope you enjoyed reading, and I'll write again soon.
Thursday, March 10, 2016
Facts About Me
Hey there, World!
Well, today I felt like writing something that is about myself... and I am not going to write it like I am going to write my story in Maalaala Mo Kaya, I am just going to write down some interesting facts about me (interesting to me that is) in numerical order.
1. I have a pretty decent singing voice, but not the kind that can be for contests.
2. My birthday is at the end of every year, which is December 31.
3. Ironically, I am afraid of hearing loud noises from fireworks and popping balloons. I am quite jumpy that way.
4. I currently have three cats and they all look the same except for the size.
5. One time when I was small, I almost drowned in a public pool, but my big brother saved me.
6. My eyesight is like the eyesight of an old lady.
7. I tried drawing before but drawing doesn't like me.
8. Culinary arts was suppose to be my choice but because of money I just went for BSBA.
9. From elementary to high school I was such a lazy girl, like I don't want to do homework and I don't study... amazing that I reached this far.
10. English is like my mother tongue because I watch english cartoons growing up. Also video games contributed to my english speaking skills.
11. I am bad at Filipino subjects. My PUPCET score for Filipino is really low.
12. I like sleeping with my head covered with a pillow.
13. I don't go out that much, but I get excited if I go to somewhere new.
14. I used to be a weaboo but now I am past that phase.
15. The only exam that I had a perfect score is a Computer subject.
Well, that's all that I could think of that is interesting about me. I hope you learned something new about me.
I hope you enjoyed reading, and I'll write again soon. :)
Well, today I felt like writing something that is about myself... and I am not going to write it like I am going to write my story in Maalaala Mo Kaya, I am just going to write down some interesting facts about me (interesting to me that is) in numerical order.
1. I have a pretty decent singing voice, but not the kind that can be for contests.
2. My birthday is at the end of every year, which is December 31.
3. Ironically, I am afraid of hearing loud noises from fireworks and popping balloons. I am quite jumpy that way.
4. I currently have three cats and they all look the same except for the size.
5. One time when I was small, I almost drowned in a public pool, but my big brother saved me.
6. My eyesight is like the eyesight of an old lady.
7. I tried drawing before but drawing doesn't like me.
8. Culinary arts was suppose to be my choice but because of money I just went for BSBA.
9. From elementary to high school I was such a lazy girl, like I don't want to do homework and I don't study... amazing that I reached this far.
10. English is like my mother tongue because I watch english cartoons growing up. Also video games contributed to my english speaking skills.
11. I am bad at Filipino subjects. My PUPCET score for Filipino is really low.
12. I like sleeping with my head covered with a pillow.
13. I don't go out that much, but I get excited if I go to somewhere new.
14. I used to be a weaboo but now I am past that phase.
15. The only exam that I had a perfect score is a Computer subject.
Well, that's all that I could think of that is interesting about me. I hope you learned something new about me.
I hope you enjoyed reading, and I'll write again soon. :)
Wednesday, March 9, 2016
Random Post #1
Hey there, World!
It has been a while since I wrote again. I just have been finding inspiration for some material for my blog, but it seems I couldn't think of anything that is not boring. Sometimes my diary part of my blog can be quite boring, it is like I am rambling to a friend about my day to day activities. But then it is my personal blog so I guess I shouldn't complain much.
This is actually the third time that I changed my topic for this post. The first was about conflicts, and the second is about inspiration. This is the topic that I chose because well it is something that I am more familiar of, which is trying to find inspiration. I want to be inspired to start writing but it seems it doesn't want to get near me.
I did thought of trying again to write that fantasy story that I have mentioned a while back, but I am not that confident that it will be a hit. But then I thought, maybe I should try a different type of story. Why not? I could just write it here in my personal blog instead of creating a new one. The funny thing is that I suddenly thought of that as I type this post. So, maybe in the near future you will see a chapter of a story and I will just post it little by little.
I am quite rambling about random things right now. So... I hope you enjoyed reading, and I'll write again soon. :)
It has been a while since I wrote again. I just have been finding inspiration for some material for my blog, but it seems I couldn't think of anything that is not boring. Sometimes my diary part of my blog can be quite boring, it is like I am rambling to a friend about my day to day activities. But then it is my personal blog so I guess I shouldn't complain much.
This is actually the third time that I changed my topic for this post. The first was about conflicts, and the second is about inspiration. This is the topic that I chose because well it is something that I am more familiar of, which is trying to find inspiration. I want to be inspired to start writing but it seems it doesn't want to get near me.
I did thought of trying again to write that fantasy story that I have mentioned a while back, but I am not that confident that it will be a hit. But then I thought, maybe I should try a different type of story. Why not? I could just write it here in my personal blog instead of creating a new one. The funny thing is that I suddenly thought of that as I type this post. So, maybe in the near future you will see a chapter of a story and I will just post it little by little.
I am quite rambling about random things right now. So... I hope you enjoyed reading, and I'll write again soon. :)
Thursday, March 3, 2016
The HR Convention
Hey there, World!
Before I start rambling about my topic, I would like to apologize that I have not been active for over a week. I have been busy lately with schoolwork and such. Also, it's because I can't get more load for mobile data.
A couple of weeks ago, my friend asked me if I would like to come with them at the 6th Annual HR Convention at the Hotel Rembrandt. I didn't want to go at first because of money but my friend convinced me that I should go because it's an international event and the certificate would be worth it. I thought for a second, and then I said, yeah sure, why not? So I asked for our classmate to sign me up for the event.
I was quite worried about the money because the pre-registration payment was on the next day. And so I asked my mother for some money to at least pay it. I am not the kind who asks money from my parents because... well, I dunno... I guess it's because of our financial condition right now that I can't even have more than PHP100 to have as weekly allowance.
Anyway, I got the money and paid the fee. Then, I got a lanyard and an ID card. Since, Hotel Rembrandt is at Quezon City, I had to get more money for the commute (we don't have a service vehicle to take us there). My mother was quite considerate to give me commute money.
Then, the day before the event, we agreed to meet up somewhere at 4:30 AM. Since it was too early, I had to adjust my body clock to sleep earlier because these days, I am always sleeping around 2 AM (and I'm doing it again right now). Since it was too early and too dark to go, my mother told me to go with my father at the meeting place.
I woke up at 2:30 AM and I started preparing myself. Then I went to the meeting place with my father. I was a bit surprised because most of my companions were wearing skirts while there were two of us wearing slacks, and in my mind I was thinking, "Are they going to be comfortable while commuting?" Then again, the guidelines said that to wear our best business attire. Though I did thought of wearing a skirt for that day, but I discarded the thought.
So, we commuted and stuff until we reached to the hotel. We stood in line first before entering. There were other schools who were with us for the event. As we entered, we were greeted with warm smiles of the event organizers in modern Filipiñana dresses and ombre barongs. The event was at the ballroom which is in the fifth floor. We used an elevator to get there. As we went up, we heard that there were some music. When the elevator doors opened, we saw bamboo instrument players playing.
While waiting for the event to start, those bamboo instrument players played for the audience a few songs. The music was fun and we were amazed that these people were making music using bamboo instruments.
When we sat down there was a small black bag sitting on our chairs. Inside it were freebies and fliers from the event's sponsors. It was just mostly fliers, a notebook, a couple of pens, white chocolates, medicine, candies, pieces of paper from the hotel, and those round flexible fans.
The event started and we sat for hours. I started to feel sleepy and my butt was starting to hurt for sitting too long. The first speaker was a HR head froma TV channel. The second one was a CEO of a company from Singapore. The third one, a business man from Thailand, made most of the girls swoon because he was good looking and stuff. The last one was a celebrity from a differnt TV station. His words were funny at the same time motivational.
The food was I thought that our pre-registration fee was for lunch only, but it turns out that merienda was part of the fee too. The lunch was a noodle soup or a sopas (people said it was tastless, but I say otherwise), two pieces of fish fillet, and some chopsuey. The merienda was only palabok and puto, though I didn't enjoy it that much because palabok is my least favorite dishes to eat.
There was a raffle draw during and after the programme but since only one of us got a price, we just went home instead.
After that convention it was tiring but rewarding. I learned quite a lot and I do hope that I would go and use what I learned in the corporate world.
I hope you enjoyed reading, and I'll write again soon. :)
Before I start rambling about my topic, I would like to apologize that I have not been active for over a week. I have been busy lately with schoolwork and such. Also, it's because I can't get more load for mobile data.
A couple of weeks ago, my friend asked me if I would like to come with them at the 6th Annual HR Convention at the Hotel Rembrandt. I didn't want to go at first because of money but my friend convinced me that I should go because it's an international event and the certificate would be worth it. I thought for a second, and then I said, yeah sure, why not? So I asked for our classmate to sign me up for the event.
I was quite worried about the money because the pre-registration payment was on the next day. And so I asked my mother for some money to at least pay it. I am not the kind who asks money from my parents because... well, I dunno... I guess it's because of our financial condition right now that I can't even have more than PHP100 to have as weekly allowance.
Anyway, I got the money and paid the fee. Then, I got a lanyard and an ID card. Since, Hotel Rembrandt is at Quezon City, I had to get more money for the commute (we don't have a service vehicle to take us there). My mother was quite considerate to give me commute money.
Then, the day before the event, we agreed to meet up somewhere at 4:30 AM. Since it was too early, I had to adjust my body clock to sleep earlier because these days, I am always sleeping around 2 AM (and I'm doing it again right now). Since it was too early and too dark to go, my mother told me to go with my father at the meeting place.
I woke up at 2:30 AM and I started preparing myself. Then I went to the meeting place with my father. I was a bit surprised because most of my companions were wearing skirts while there were two of us wearing slacks, and in my mind I was thinking, "Are they going to be comfortable while commuting?" Then again, the guidelines said that to wear our best business attire. Though I did thought of wearing a skirt for that day, but I discarded the thought.
So, we commuted and stuff until we reached to the hotel. We stood in line first before entering. There were other schools who were with us for the event. As we entered, we were greeted with warm smiles of the event organizers in modern Filipiñana dresses and ombre barongs. The event was at the ballroom which is in the fifth floor. We used an elevator to get there. As we went up, we heard that there were some music. When the elevator doors opened, we saw bamboo instrument players playing.
While waiting for the event to start, those bamboo instrument players played for the audience a few songs. The music was fun and we were amazed that these people were making music using bamboo instruments.
When we sat down there was a small black bag sitting on our chairs. Inside it were freebies and fliers from the event's sponsors. It was just mostly fliers, a notebook, a couple of pens, white chocolates, medicine, candies, pieces of paper from the hotel, and those round flexible fans.
The event started and we sat for hours. I started to feel sleepy and my butt was starting to hurt for sitting too long. The first speaker was a HR head froma TV channel. The second one was a CEO of a company from Singapore. The third one, a business man from Thailand, made most of the girls swoon because he was good looking and stuff. The last one was a celebrity from a differnt TV station. His words were funny at the same time motivational.
The food was I thought that our pre-registration fee was for lunch only, but it turns out that merienda was part of the fee too. The lunch was a noodle soup or a sopas (people said it was tastless, but I say otherwise), two pieces of fish fillet, and some chopsuey. The merienda was only palabok and puto, though I didn't enjoy it that much because palabok is my least favorite dishes to eat.
There was a raffle draw during and after the programme but since only one of us got a price, we just went home instead.
After that convention it was tiring but rewarding. I learned quite a lot and I do hope that I would go and use what I learned in the corporate world.
I hope you enjoyed reading, and I'll write again soon. :)
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